What is Worse

What’s worse?

To know

That someone was living in the walls

Or find

That someone is dying in your halls

To feel

Your skin crawling like a beast

Or see

Your flesh, alive and hungry for the feast

.

I feel so overwhelmed

Distracted

By all this hell I’ve created

But I can’t help but feel happy

No longer slow and sappy

.

What’s worse

To find

The bitter taste of copper in your mouth

Or See

Her blood is splattered all around

To hear

Your loved ones crying for your help

Or watch

Your legs walk away all by themselves

.

I feel such satisfaction

By all of my abstractions

Horror is made reality

These terrors in their nascency

Another Sunrise

There the day has ended

But here it has just begun

Your second birthday

Still cries all of nature

Unwilling to let pass

This glorious day

You, goddess

Draw out all that is good

We flock to you in rapture

Unwilling to leave

To pass up your love

We shall revel

For a few more hours yet

Animal Urge

Bent and growling

Howling moans

And heavy breath

Our animals unleashed

We are fang and claw

Yet here now

We are intimate

Powerful

Dangerous

Yet loving

And careful

Dichotomy in passion

How wild you drive me

What we do to one another

Never enough to sate that hunger

Even as we slow

Panting heavy

We kiss

Ignite

Once again

To once more

Unleash

Our primal urge

Oh Joyous Day

The clock clasps limply on midnight

Twelve soft chimes ring out

Herald of your birth

The day the world grew a bit brighter

Mourning Doves cry here desperate for you

Magpies warble there in joy for your arrival

All of nature beckons you to arise

Greet the future with open palms

Invite the love that you deserve

This year I may not be there

But know I hold you in my thoughts

I send well wishes and good luck

And lots and lots of love

Happy Birthday

Mo Shíoghrá

A Lone Rider

I am wanderlust

Every traveler’s end

Heading southbound like a rollin’ cloud

Rattlesnakes and coyotes for company

My breath fetid brackish thing

The yanks felt my putrid grasp

I am every last gasp

Coasts and desert scorch

Carry me far and wide

See now how they scurry

Caught on quicker than their northern brothers

But far far too late

I ride upon their backs

In their lungs and in their blood

I am their final regret

Pestilence

The only rider

Who bothered to show

Yet in the end

More than enough

 

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Press on

Stone presses on chest

Movement an impossibility

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Motivation an impossibility

 

I pour from bed

A horrible mess on the floor

I look in the mirror

A horrible mess in all regards

 

I must practice kindness

You’re trying your best

Give leeway on hard days

You’re trying like all the rest

 

I’m still standing

I’m not done yet

It’s a battle

I’m not dead yet

A Cold Night

The loam gave to his grasping hands as something dragged him away.

No

This is not right

He’s sliding. The ground now a hill. Half dead saplings snap and splinter as he tumbles past, body a blur as he rolls over end.

Then air.

Free.

Flying.

Next, a splash. Icy talons sink into every inch of flesh. They wish to tear him apart. Rend this fool’s form. He gasps in a lungful of river before his head meets riverbed.

He swims in inky nothing. But soon is dragged, gagging, coughing, heaving, retching from the depths.

A man, dressed in buck skin and hay, leans over him. “Sir, y’allright?”

His head is still swimming, tumbling, flying. He turns over, onto hands and knees as he holds out a hand to stop this stranger. “Leave me…”

“Sir, yer bleedin’…” The stranger reached out with a gentle hand.

He pulled a blade from a latched case on his hip, swiping at the stranger vaguely. “Get the fuck away!” He barked, stumbling as he backed away.

The stranger held up his hands, stepped back, and then ran, disappearing between so many perfectly disorganized trees.

“Filthy…” He grunted as he found purchase on a low branch. “Backwards…” He hissed as he stepped up the embankment, snow kissing his ankles. “Heathens…”

An owl watched the man, head bleeding, leaving a crimson trail, blood current, from where he had been dragged from the river.

Something else watched too. Sinew and fang. Teeth, sharp and poised. Eyes shocking red and unblinking.

Angel of death. Spirit of vengeance. Serpent of Curses. Cormac.

This man reeked of sins and blood. All his folly had called forth this beast. As it struck out, venom singing violent violet through his veins, he knew what he had done. How it had been called, and why he would die that night.

The Hole

As I walk down the street, streetlight conical safety passing, I feel something shift like an earthquake, but inward.

Something appears some distance ahead.

I squint, but whatever it is only appears as a hole in my sight, black and without texture. Slowly I walk towards it. I try to come at it at an angle, to see if any variation exists.

Perfectly spherical, and as I get closer I feel the hum of silence. A quiet so perfect that the sound of your blood flow and heartbeat is deafening.

Slowly I reach out and as my fingers pass whatever barrier this sphere represents, I can feel nothing beyond where my fingertips have disappeared. I pull my hand back and find my fingers are gone. I don’t find this alarming. Of course they’re gone. I was born that way. This still does not explain the sphere.

I pick up a rock and throw it within.

I should try throwing something inside.

I pick up a rock and throw it within.

I wonder absently what happens if you put something inside.

I take some change from my pocket, hold it above the hole and drop it within. As it passes within-

I wonder with increased curiosity what it looks like inside the hole. I lean closer, eyes wide and spark of curiosity clear. Closer. Closer.